Thursday, February 20, 2025

Is death a blessing

This year I have known at least 3 people who died, plus 5 animals who were my pet sitting clients who passed "over the Rainbow Bridge".  My father has often said, "it would be a blessing if they pass", or that their death was "a blessing."  

A few of my friends parents died if different age related issues.  A church friend, Laurel, battled stage 4, metastatic breast cancer that spread to her spine and eventually all over her body.

My nephew accidentally took his own life by taking a volume of uppers with alcohol and, likely, because he was on his back he asphyxiated or aspirated his own vomit.

Another church friend died of complications from a fall which left him paralyzed and possibly other health issues that took his life.

I've watched my Mother decline with advanced Macular degeneration and then weakness that has taken her ability to walk without the help of a walker and human assistance.  Her memory has shortened, she is still smart once she hears and sees you, but she is not all there.  I miss her and have told my soul I need to let her go whenever it seems right.  While I know it is coming, I do not see her death as a blessing but just a step in life.  

My father has been in a decline since Dec 2023.  I have known he has vision issues since before his cataracts problems.  His balance is a pretty constant problem, he falls at least 1x a week.  Since he is the chef, the house and yard cleaner, the bill payer - I see him stumble, and struggle to remember things correctly, gets mom and I in an accident in April 2024 and not apologize about it - his accuracy is off.  His health is off but he manages to get up each day and go through a modicum of tasks...all the while a bit depressed that his wife of 67 years is not the same person she was, even last year.

I think of my parents as teenagers now, each with their own issues.

The time is coming, but I dont know when.  It will not be a blessing or a curse - just a thing that happens.