Monday, June 4, 2012

Do you trust your instincts? or, paranoid much?

I've been trying to find love on the on-line dating world since about 2004 (see new blog).

At middle age, never been married - this can seem quite a task.  I am seeking men with a religious background (LDS or Mormon as you may know), not too messed up from their divorce or widower hood.  This is a narrow collection of options.  This is a freakishly crazy subset of the human race and it is not for the weak.

A recent experience had me talking, texting, e-mailing a guy who lives in another state.  We do this pretty much non stop for about 2 months...and then I visit him.

About a week later - he starts exhibiting some strange behaviors.  Avoiding me, saying he will call.  Not calling.  Leaving an e-mail that he is not avoiding me, he is focusing on his family.  Then I learn he is staying with a friend - the friend is having problems.  He is enjoying being with this friend.  Says he wants to talk to me eventually - not to jump to conclusions.  But after a week of not talking, weird e-mails and cryptic notes - I have to pay attention to this sense of paranoia I have wanted to ignore.

Instinct.  This story does not work.  This person is trying to flee me.

I know - we must let him flee.  Buy why are we here?