Where Did You Go?

OK, I thought I found you and apparently not.

You have been elusive - I wait and then think we've met and we haven't.

I get lots of input from friends and family: don't try so hard, you're acting desperate, you should be more open minded, you're lucky you've met any guy at that age, you should be more discerning.

At 49, having tried many types of men, many paths that would lead me to you - each time I go through an emotional spin-out when I realize it was not you I found.

Not yet, that is.

I always find some hope that you are there. That the very next time I reach out I will find you.

Today I'm not really ready - still spinning a bit from this most recent attempt that didn't work out.

Have patience or get busy looking for me.

I'm here

Help - what now?

Break up got you crazy?

Yup

A new strong emotion every 5 minutes and I keep thinking of follow-up thoughts to our last words. Am I normal - please someone duct tape me to my chair.

How do you cope with this - we're just over 32 hours - WHAT, I'm not patient enough?

ok

What do you suggest? Long walks? Music? no Music?

so the peace doesn't settle in right away?

ok, I'll try a little longer